Sunday, September 8, 2019

Two Websites



I know I told everyone to hop over to my website, ritalsmith.com, and you can still do that. However, I managed to get the website mycrazylife2go.com, so check it out too. I am transitioning my blogs to Wordpress, but no matter which I blog on you can find it on either of my websites.

I am in the process of writing a book about my life, which I hope to have released next year. Though that depends on what the publisher wants to do or if I publish myself. I have a page on Facebook and a group if you want to connect with me.

I hope you join me on my journey to living life around my disability. As always, I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Sunday, August 25, 2019

Transition



I am transitioning my blog to my website. If you want to continue following my posts, hop over to My Crazy Life

If you have been reading this blog on my website at https://ritalsmith.com you are here, just look in the menu for Blogs or across the top of the page depending on your device. It’s finally becoming easier to access writing blogs on my site.

I will miss blogger, but it’s good transition.

I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Friday, August 23, 2019

People Don’t Understand

This was a good day. No dizziness. 


Unless others have a chronic debilitating disease, they don’t understand. Why don’t I look sick or disabled? Because my bad days are spent at home, usually in bed. On so-so days, I am great at pretending to be well. Still I try to subtly let others know that I’m not well. I tell my husband to stay with me. We are both bad at this.

I rarely have non-dizzy days anymore. If I am lucky I’ll have a good day once a week. I am a morning person, but find myself staying in bed longer so as not to over exert myself too early. I find myself in bed anytime between 7:30 and 9 most nights. I try to stay up, but my eyes will begin watering which is a sign that it’s time to hit the sack.

The nights when I have something to do, I conserve my energy during the day, so I can enjoy whatever activity I am doing. Yes, I don’t look disabled, but my body is no longer mine. It attacks me at every turn. Asthma (thankfully controlled), costochondritis, osteoarthritis, fibromyalgia and the worst of all meniere’s disease fight me everyday. Notice I didn’t capitalize them?  They have too much power already.

Sometimes taking a shower uses up too much energy. Yet it’s the one thing I refuse to stop, unless a full blown vertigo attack strikes! Should I use the spoon theory? Sometimes I start with 25 spoons of energy, but other days I start with 3. If I have 25 spoons I might be feeling pretty good. But realize that people without my issues have an unlimited number of spoons.

One of my biggest pet peeves is people who say, “I had that, but I did so and so... Now I’m cured.” What is it about an incurable chronic illness that they don’t understand? If you have Ménière’s, you aren’t cured. You might be in remission, but it always comes back. All the surgeries, steroid injections, medication that may help. Eventually though MD returns when you least expect it.

I was in remission for about 6 years. I knew Meniere’s was still part of my life, because I still had tinnitus, brain fog and balance issues. Still it took me by surprise when I woke up after having spent the previous day at Universal Studios, before heading to Disneyland, with the walls waving up a down. I carried on and regretted it after getting sick after riding Space Mountain. It’s normally my favorite ride, but one that I’ll never go on again. Darkness, combined with roller coaster movements with occasional flashes of light are not good for Vestibular issues.

So, no I was not cured. Ménière’s Disease isn’t curable. The most we can hope is to control it.
 It still knocks us for a loop by the unpredictability of its return. I get no warning whatsoever before an attack. Fortunately, it’s been over a year since my last full blown vertigo attack. I get mini spins frequently.

So, no you were not cured or you didn’t have Ménière’s. So don’t try to make me feel that I am not doing enough. Believe me I am doing whatever the doctor suggests. Some things I know have worked to help others, my ENT won’t even consider. So I try to live the best life I can. There is no way to make anyone understand, but compassion goes a long way. I will never doubt you are sick, so don’t doubt me when I say I am.

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Thursday, August 22, 2019

Reinventing Myself



Waiting on my EEG. This is a good day for me, but I would have preferred to do something enjoyable. The technician confirmed I have a brain!


I felt worthless last week, because I couldn’t drive to help out my husband, nor did I feel comfortable being in public by myself. Two drop attacks the past week had unnerved me. I realized the other day I may not be able to work, because of the unpredictability of Ménière’s, but I can write. I can try to reach one person who needs to hear that they are not alone. I can tell them I see them. I can advocate for invisible disabilities and the people who have them.

I have been doing that for awhile. Sometimes I even reach the person who needs to hear my message. I will continue to write about my experiences. Even I needed a reminder that I am not useless. I have a voice that I can use through my blogs and my support group.

A debilitating illness means you must learn who you are with it. You might grieve your past self. You may go through the stages of grief over and over. For me it’s inevitable. Something will throw me into despair, and I will grieve the old me. That is okay. I came through it and realized that my disability may limit what I can do, but it doesn’t define me.

I define myself. I am an adventurer with limitations. I am a voice for the invisible. I am worthy of the life I have been given. It has helped me feel better when I realized what I’ve been doing is try to help others.

In a former life, I worked in Mental Health as a Social Worker. I always wanted to help others and I will continue to do so. I just don’t get paid for it. I AM NOT INVISIBLE! I AM AN INVISIBLE DISABILITY ADVOCATE!

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Friday, August 16, 2019

Live

Live on the good days and they will carry you through the bad days. You might be able to tell that wasn’t a good day, but a so-so one for me. I still got out to see Barenaked Ladies and Hootie and the Blowfish. I think I would have crawled to see Barenaked Ladies. I love them that much. On a worse day last week I had to miss Weird Al. I was having too many mini spins. I don’t think concert noise and lights mix with even small bouts of vertigo. Not to mention my balance was shot.

Lately I’ve not felt myself at all. My head is almost constantly dizzy with burst of vertigo. Plus all of my other issues have decided to flare, as I said in my last blog. This combination makes it hard to live or even get out of bed. Though I still wake up early, I stay in bed longer trying to alleviate some of the symptoms. I promised myself that I would never stay in bed for longer than necessary after those years so long ago where I only got out of bed to do anything, unless I visited family.

Despite how I am feeling, I still have plans. On Tuesday we are going to see Def Leppard. I will rely on my husband and maybe my cane to get me there. I rely on aids more and more lately. Cane, earplugs, and blue light filtering glasses.

These activities make the bad days more bearable. So when I have an attack or am too dizzy to function, I can think of all the good times I’ve had and the good times to come. I try to smile like today.

It’s not always easy to put a smile on, especially if I feel worthless. The good days remind me that I’m needed. My support group reminds me that I am needed. My dogs and cats remind me that I am loved. Most of all my husband loves me and brushes off my moodiness. He is there for me, though he can’t always tell I am not feeling well. He does get frustrated st times, but that is normal for any care giver. When we got together we decided to have amazing adventures and we have! We will continue to do so, even if we have to alter plans a bit.


Even a simple camping trip is an adventure and an escape from my illness, even when having symptoms! So live everyday you can to the fullest. I promise it helps get you through the bad times.

I hope you are spin free .

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Thursday, August 15, 2019

The Struggle is Real



Living with one debilitating disease is hard. Especially when I am almost always dizzy, have balance issues, feel as if the ground is moving. Throw in a drop attack or two where I feel as though someone shoved me backwards. Oh let’s not forget the constant tinnitus. Even when I went in remission the tinnitus remained to let me know that this disease would be back. This is what I feel on a daily basis. Lately, it’s rare for me to not experience dizziness. Even if you see me out with my hubby, I am probably not feeling well. 

Oh, I almost forgot vertigo. Though I haven’t had a full blown attack of vertigo that lasts for hours, I do have mini spins. These are short usually only lasting a rotation or three. I can’t think straight much of the time, because my head feels foggy. Brain fog makes me forget words too. 

My problems don’t stop with Ménière’s. And lately they all seem to be ganging up on me. The Fibromyalgia is causing me to feel as if I have the flue. That achy, nauseous feeling and sort throat that characterizes the flue is how I am feeling. The nausea is also a symptom of the Ménière’s. 

In addition to the Fibromyalgia pain, I have Costochondritis, which is inflammation of the cartilage that connects the ribs to the breastbone and it’s flaring as well. My Osteoarthritis in my hands, feet and knees is also acting up. My Lichen Sclerosis is out of remission too. This is a vulvar disease and it’s painful and itchy. Oh and my migraines are almost a daily thing. I thought they were gone when I went off my water pill, but they’re back. It’s good that I see a neurologist on Monday.

I have already wrote about the depression. That’s a different kind of pain. All of this makes for a very moody Rita. I am good at faking being well, except for my emotions. They are all over the place right now and come out in the most unexpected places. Telling family to go to hell for one. 

So most days I am by myself at home and that is good. No one to go off on. The pets are around to give me lots of love. It’s frustrating that I am stuck at home, until Ralph is home or if my brother is around to take me somewhere. 

I think giving up my independence is the hardest. I can run my car on one tank of gas for three months. That’s how often I don’t have some type of dizziness. And I don’t go far from home lately on my own. The two drop attacks this past week as frightened me, They don’t give any warning. I don’t know when the next one will be. So I am kind of afraid to be out on my own. 

I hope you are spin free. 

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Tuesday, August 13, 2019

Depression: The Downside

Today I feel useless. I can’t do anything right. I’m too dizzy to try. Mini spins are too frequent for me to feel comfortable out by myself. I am afraid. 

Afraid that I am not needed. Afraid that everyone would be better off without me. Afraid to live. I am afraid. 

I am so overwhelmingly sad. How do I go on when I think everyone would be better off without me? Ralph’s friends don’t want to hang out with him, because of me. 

I feel utterly alone. I wish my emotions would stop so I couldn’t feel this pain. Numbness would be preferable to the pain of feeling as if I don’t belong in this world.

I know this is the depression talking, because I am happy when it’s not present, but today I am sad. I hurt and it’s no ones fault. It’s only a matter of time before it ends. Unfortunately, others have been at the end of my explosive emotions. Usually I can laugh things off, but depression takes that ability away. 

I wish I was different. I wish I wasn’t living with this pain. I wish that I didn’t cause others pain. I wish I could be who you want me to be. I wish I could be who I want to be.

I am just so very sorry for everything. Today I am sad.

Sunday, August 11, 2019

The Upside of Depression

What Upside? I can hear the question as I type this.  Bear with me A moment. Depression is not easy. It’s not anything that you want to keep around. It makes me irritable and explosive. My emotions jump all over the place.



So how can depression have an upside? My muses seem to be able to talk to me when I am depressed. But you blog all the time... yes, but when I blog I am talking about myself or things I have experienced. And if you knew me, you’d know I talk a lot. Blogging is just an extension of my voice. I have always wanted to help others. I hope my blogs get through to at least one person.

I am writing again, not just blogging. Hopefully, I’ll turn out something readable. So though depression is awful for me and those around me that take the brunt of my mood swings, I am doing something.

I dabbled in writing here and there the past 7 years since my second husband died, but nothing has really gotten me to put my butt in the chair and my fingers on the keyboard, except for depression. I am not sure why I am more creative in a depression. I know logically that I should be able to write when I am happy.

Maybe it’s that I don’t make the time. When I am depressed I can’t be distracted by other things. I seem to have tunnel vision when I’m in a depression. Good for writing, bad for everything else. Maybe I’ll snap out of it soon. I was not even aware that it had crept in, until this morning. I woke up grumpy having slept very little. Maybe the fact that I recognized the depression, I will soon be out of it.

Mine is cyclical and not as devastating to me as some people’s depression is to them. We are all different, even our disabilities are different. We each exhibit and deal with depression differently. For me keeping busy helps. Occasionally, I need medication to snap me out, but it’s been awhile since I’ve been on anything.

So, I will use this time to listen to the voices in my head, so I can tell their stories and mine too. I have been pondering writing a book about me, so I can reach more people than I can here. Hopefully, by getting back in the habit, I can continue writing even as the current depression ends.

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita




Friday, August 9, 2019

Words Hurt



I have learned to say thank you when someone compliments me, even though it’s not my first thought. My dad never learned to say anything nice. I don’t think he meant to inflict the damage on me, my siste’s and my brother’s psyche. He did though, because we felt fat. I felt ugly even after my freckles lightened, I got my braces off and didn’t wear glasses for many years between. I also felt stupid. I have to remind myself that I am the only one in my family who graduated from college. My dad told me when I graduated that out of all his children he never expected me to graduate. I think he meant it as a compliment, but that is not what I heard. I heard that I was dumb.

I just want to let you know that you are not alone and it is possible to change your thoughts. My brother worked hard at not being like our dad with his kids and didn’t allow them to call each other names, nor did he. I am proud that he figured out that words hurt long before I did.

I hope all parents make their kids feel that they are important, can do anything they put their mind to, and that they are beautiful. Bullying comes from all places. When you judge someone based on their looks, when you call someone four eyes because they wear glasses, and when they struggle in school and you make them feel dumb.

I got my dad into trouble with Sister Thomas Miriam when I was a senior in high school. She wanted me to apply for grants. I told her why should I my dad says I’m too dumb. Boy did she let him have it. I wish I could have been there.

It’s not too late to heal your broken psyche. I try to think something positive about myself every morning. A friend said to list all your accomplishments along with everything you’ve overcome. Your list will be longer than you think. Write a list of all your positives, you may have to look past your discomfort to see them. Write your negatives down, and then next to them write a positive or what you can do to change it. There are many more exercises that you can do to help you change your perception of yourself. The hardest thing for me to do was to say thank you , when someone complimented me. Rather than arguing or brushing it off, simply say thanks. If you need more help get counseling or google exercises that you can do at home.

Everyone is beautiful and perfect. We are all individuals and different! Being different is a good thing. We’d be boring if we were all the same. If there is something about you that you still don’t like, you can change it. I don’t meant change your face, because you are beautiful. Don’t argue with me, you are, but that too can be changed. It’s just not necessary. Overcoming our thought processes will help so much more than plastic surgery can. Even with plastic surgery we are still the same broken person underneath. So we need to change how we think of ourselves.

You are all beautiful! I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Wednesday, August 7, 2019

Plans Change

I have tickets to see Weird Al tonight. Unfortunately, many of my invisible disabilities are causing me grief today. I am having pain from fibromyalgia, arthritis and the costochondritis. Unfortunately, the Ménière’s has decided to show up to the party as well. I am dizzy and having mini spins, short bouts of vertigo.



I bought the tickets months ago. My brother was to be my date. Since I am feeling unwell, I asked his wife if she’d like to go in my place. My husband thinks I should wait to see if I feel better later. Somehow, I don’t think I will without a good night’s sleep.

Today Ménière’s wins. It does sometimes. Unfortunately, I was looking forward to seeing Weird Al, because he’s a musical genius and makes me laugh too.

I just took this picture and I can see my smile is only slightly masking how I feel. I wish I could say that I’m always able to middle through, but that is not the case. There are people who think I fake being sick, but in reality most days I fake being well. I do occasionally get good days where I feel normal, but they are few and far between.

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Monday, August 5, 2019

Invisible No More

My disabilities might be invisible, but I am not. I am here. I have a voice, a rather loud one too!
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My goal is to educate and hopefully find that one person who needs to hear what I have to say. I am always happy when I am able to help others to feel not so alone. Or even to point them in the right direction for a diagnosis.

I don’t care if people get tired of hearing about my disabilities. I don’t care if they think I am seeking attention. I may be seeking attention, but not for the reason they think. I am trying to reach that person who needs me. Whether they are the afflicted or someone who knows someone who has an invisible disability.

Sometimes you just need to understand what your friend, significant other, mom or dad, son or daughter are going through. And hearing it from someone who is not close to you helps. That is why Ralph is in my support groups. I think he has a better understanding of Ménière’s by being part of the groups. He certainly is more understanding when I am unable to accomplish my goals.

I have friends who don’t talk about their issues. And that is fine too, but I won’t stop because it makes someone uncomfortable. I am not embarrassed and I have no reason to hide. Granted it might seem strange to outsiders that I am able to live my life. What they don’t see is me napping to recharge my battery, so I can. Nor do they see the days when I pay for taking that walk or going on that trip. For every bit of fun I have there is always consequences.

I know that I may pay and I am willing, otherwise I will curl up on my bed and never leave it, because I’d be too afraid of the days I need to stay in bed. I know that’s sort of an oxymoron. You’re damned if you do and your damned if you don’t. I will always choose living. It makes the down days so much easier.

It’s up to each individual what they are willing to trade. I go prepared most of the time. There are times I’ve forgotten my earplugs or refused to carry my cane that I have regretted it. Fortunately, my blue light filtering lenses are built into my glasses. I need to be more diligent about being prepared. Sometimes no matter how well prepared I am, nothing can save me from my Disability. It is always there and its totally unpredictable. I am talking about Ménière’s and migraines. The Fibromyalgia is a bit more predictable. Weather changes, overdoing activity are sure signs that I will end up paying. Is it worth it? Yes!

This is me! This is my life! And I will live it however I see fit!

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Tuesday, July 30, 2019

Being Invisible

Have you ever felt invisible? I think most of us have at one point or another. But have you felt the pain of no one believing you’re sick? .You don’t look sick, or why are you parked in a handicapped parking space when you’re not disabled? These insensitive statements can be debilitating to those with chronic, invisible illnesses. They can cause anxiety, depression, anger and self-doubt.

As an individual with an chronic, invisible disability I try to speak out against the bigotry that people give to us. I want to educate all that just because you can’t see it, doesn’t mean it’s not real. I cringe when someone calls another person a hypochondriac. How do you know? Are you in their body? Being a hypochondriac is an illness in itself. Yes mental illness is an invisible disability as well. My husband had me watch “Then Came You” about a man who thought he was dying. His twin had died years earlier which gave him a real fear. Yes, it was all mental, but a real fear nonetheless. This was a good movie if you want to watch it.


That’s me in the middle riding a dragon with an invisible disability!



Anyway back to my point... Who are you to judge whether or not someone is sick? Does it take any effort to be kind and considerate? In the movie, the man attends a cancer support group and is befriended by a young woman with cancer. She changes his life. It only takes one person to change someone’s life. So let it start with you.

Whether or not someone is sick is between them and their doctor. Most people with disabilities are not scamming the system. Believe me, they’d rather be healthy. People with chronic illnesses, can only hope to manage their symptoms. There is no cure. No we might not die from it, but sometimes we feel like it. What works for one, doesn’t necessarily work for another, so even the doctors are mystified about how to treat it. I had a great PCP, who said, “We’ll treat one symptom at a time.” Sometimes that’s all doctors can do is treat symptoms.

I went into remission from most of my invisible illnesses for about six years. It was heaven and I was able to go off most of my medication including reducing my asthma medication. I don’t know why this happened, but it was as if I’d been cured by diet and exercise. Thinking back though, I went into remission first and then I started eating healthier and exercising. It did not cure me, as I found out when the Ménière’s returned at Disneyland in 2017.

Now all my stuff are returning, with new stuff popping up. People have asked, “Why all of a sudden?” I cannot answer that except to say that is how Autoimmune/Chronic diseases work. One day you feel great and the next you are flat on your back too tired to get out of bed or too sore or too dizzy... I could go on and on about the way I feel on bad days.

So, why judge me on my good days? Do you know this was the first time in a month that my head was clear enough to drive? That I didn’t ache so I could go pick up my medication? Do you know how it feels to get one or two days a month where you feel almost normal? Just because I don’t show you the bad days, and unless you visit you’ll never see them, doesn’t mean I don’t have them.

Even on my so-so days when I venture out with my husband, you won’t see how my head is so fogged up that I can’t concentrate, or that I am struggling with the overstimulation of noise and lights. You might see me tip or stumble, if you are paying attention. Most people aren’t. Sometimes I need that cane to give me confidence to walk when I feel dizzy or off balance, even thoughI know if the vertigo starts it will not keep me upright. And the drop attacks come out of nowhere. I mostly get slammed backwards, so you may notice these or the ones where I am walking and it feels like my ankle forgets it has a job to do and I go down. But you will find reasons these happened. I have been called clumsy or careless. I am clumsy, but not in these instances. These are part of my illness.

Next time you see someone using that handicapped parking spot, or someone cancels plans, because they can’t get out of bed or are having anxiety, please be understanding. Many people with invisible disabilities feel isolated and indeed they are, because friends stop trying. I say continue to ask me to do things, but be patient if I have to cancel, it’s all part of being chronically ill.

I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Monday, July 22, 2019

World Brain Day

This morning I listened to a webinar on migraines on World Brain Day. Migraines are a brain disorder. The old thought was that they were a blood vessel problem.  I think that’s what they said. Maybe something about capillaries. 


It’s up to s to be our own advocates. Many of us with invisible disabilities already know that. Many of us know more about our diseases than our doctors. Even though migraine is one of the most common health concerns, it is also, not researched as much as other things.

Our doctors need to educate themselves and keep up on the latest treatments. As with many other chronic illnesses, migraines present differently for each person. One of the speakers spoke of a functional migraine, where you can still do things. This validated mine, because I often can still function, while other times I just want to curl up in bed in a dark, quiet room.

They spoke of the new class of drugs for migraine prevention as antibodies. When I looked it up, one of the treatments is Aimovig. Here is the article I found. It’s expensive, but would be worth it to have these daily migraines gone.

As a sufferer of migraines which have been daily lately, I hope this treatment works. I once had a three month month migraine that neurontin took away, unfortunately it made me sick. Hopefully, I will find some relief. I hope everyone finds relief. I know people are having success on  amitriptyline, and realize that may be the first option my doctor will want to try. Actually the triptan I take at the onset of a migraine was the first step, but it would get expensive if I took a one every time I have a migraine, which has been daily, so maybe in the long run trying the antibodies will be the way to go.

I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Monday, July 15, 2019

Regrouping



It is a great thing to be part of a support group. And it was an honor to be an admin, because I got to help other sufferers. If you know anything about me, that what I do. I went into Social Work to help others. That’s why I write these blogs. That is why I talk about my issues. It’s all to help others.

So, when I was booted out of a support group, I was devastated. The stress affected my balance, made me dizzy and even gave me mini spins. Thanks to many of the members whom contacted me to check on me, I woke up today feeling as if a weight had been lifted. I didn’t realize how much being an admin was affecting my psyche. Still I wouldn’t have left the group of my own accord.

So now I continue to do what I always do. I will try to help others. I am part of a newly created group with fabulous people in it. I will support people with invisible disabilities instead of just meniere’s. I am in other MD groups and I am okay with that. I can learn the latest news in one of these.

I have regrouped. If I know anything in life everything changes. I thought that I would be with the above mentioned group for longer, but it was not meant to be. I move forward in my quest to help others cope with their invisible disabilities. While educating others about them. In an old blog I used to research different autoimmune disorders and post about them. I think, for now, I will just post about my crazy life.

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light, Rita

Friday, July 12, 2019

The Day After

I haven’t been feeling well since returning from Ireland. Between the almost daily dizziness and reflux due to hiatal hernia and costochondritis, I have been miserable. Still I suck it up to try to have a bit of fun. However, there are consequences, even though I rest up beforehand. I went to see Gwen Stefani the other night. An excellent show that I would have enjoyed more if it had not been for reflux so bad that I had to vomit.


Although I didn’t drink I felt like I was drunk. I went to bed dizzy, stumbling and foggy headed. I woke up still feeling drunk. I used up all my energy to enjoy myself at the concert. I still don’t feel better two days later. In fact, I feel worse. My hiatal hernia caused my costochondritis to flare, so I was in pain all night and couldn’t sleep. 


Today I feel like a zombie, but I am up. Not doing much, well I did wash my bedding. Life continues even though I feel like the living dead. Perhaps some brains might rejuvenate me. LOL! I see an early night for this dizzy, stumbling, sleepyhead.

I hope that I will feel better tomorrow, so I can enjoy my husband’s weekend. He is starting to be able to tell when I am not feeling well. Which is most days since we returned from Ireland. I need some good days, a remission would be better.

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Saturday, July 6, 2019

Aftershocks

California, near Death Valley, has had earthquakes the past two days. We felt it here in Vegas yesterday and some felt it on the Fourth of July. During yesterday’s, July 5, I got nauseous. Then it was over, but my head continues to feel like it is shaking.

Someone posted this link in my online support group about disturbances in equilibrium following an earthquake. I wonder if it’s worse for those of us with inner ear dysfunctions? Mainly it just feels like my head is bouncing as if the earthquake was still happening. It’s outside of what I am used to, and a bit unsettling. 

I think there are still aftershocks from last nights earthquake, maybe my head is picking up on them. Or maybe it rattled something in my inner ear. I don’t know, but I feel weird. 

I hope this feeling dissipates soon. And I hope there are no more earthquakes. Be spin free my friends!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Sunday, June 30, 2019

Tough Morning

About four a.m., the vertigo started. “Fuck,” I said aloud. Fortunately what I thought would be a full blown vertigo attack only turned out to be about six rotations. Unfortunately, I keep having mini spins. These spins are as violent as my full blown attacks, so I am layed up in bed. (Like my Southeastern Ohio vernacular?)

I am going to rest this morning. I am afraid to go to church. I try to not let the anxiety stop me from doing things, but I’m not stupid. The mini spins are unpredictable and so far I’ve had about 3 an hour. It’s now six thirty. Hopefully, I can rest and feel like my “normal” self by the time Ralph gets home from work. Yes, you heard that right... he has to work on a Sunday.

So, now I am wide awake. It’s hard to sleep, because closing my eyes during vertigo makes me nauseous and it’s happening too frequently to fall asleep. Hopefully, now that I decided to skip church, breakfast and had to cancel another blood donation, I will be able to sleep,

I think my trigger for this episode was my GERDs. I threw up last night and it went through my nose. Now the nose is congested. And I am spinning. Coincidence?

My balance is off this morning, which isn’t surprising as the vertigo is violent. I am not nearly as bad as when I have a full blown attack, but not great either. My ears are full and the tinnitus is louder than normal, I am surprised I can hear. I can’t even describe how my head feels accurately, but I will try. It’s like it’s stuffed with cotton and a vice is squeezing my head and it’s not a migraine for a change. My thoughts are disjointed, otherwise known as brain fog.

Hopefully, I’ll feel better later. We want to see a movie. I already keep canceling movie dates with my hubby and friends, because I am too dizzy to drive myself and the brain fog makes it difficult to pay attention. I need all my faculties when I get behind the wheel, which was only for a couple of hours on Wednesday.


Wish me luck. I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Wednesday, June 26, 2019

It’s the Little Things

This week had been a hard week for me. Constant dizziness, tinnitus is loud and my ears are full. I had a bit of clarity this morning when the brain fog and dizziness cleared up. So I went to Walmart to pick up my medication which had been week. This is the first time in weeks I felt safe to drive. Unfortunately, it didn’t last, but I made to and from the store.



I still am able to do things with my husband and my cane helps. Most of my days are spent at home watching television or reading or writing. I am happy, just not independent.

Today I bought tickets to see Wicked. That made me so happy. I have been wanting to see this show for years. We have a couple more concerts coming up this year. We just went to see Barenaked Ladies and Hootie and the Blowfish. I wasn’t feeling my best, so I brought my cane to help with my balance.  I loved the show, especially the Barenaked Ladies.

So it’s the little things that help me get through the bad days. There are always bright spots. I want to tell anyone who has a lot of bad days to take the so-do days back and enjoy the good days. There is always light after the dark!

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Saturday, June 22, 2019

How Many Places Do I Need To Tell My Story?

So yesterday I discovered, Medium. Here is their description: Welcome to Medium, a place where words matter. Medium taps into the brains of the world's most insightful writers, thinkers, and storytellers to bring you the ...

You can read stories by others and write your own. I wrote this yesterday and have one follower already. I hope my story helps others with debilitating diseases to not stop living. Occasionally, we need someone to remind us that we can have fun.

I will try not to neglect my blogs. Though summer time makes it harder as I am busier. Thursday we went to the Las Vegas Aviators game. It was a lovely night even for this wobbly girl. We had front row seats right above the dugout. My main problem was the net to protect us from balls kept moving and disturbed my equilibrium. I had to focus on my breathing to keep from panicking whenever it moved. It took some effort, but I managed to enjoy the game with more issues.


Sometimes desensitization helps. Sometimes you need to practice for awhile before things don’t trigger anxiety which in turn triggers dizziness. It’s one of those vicious cycles that I can break with repetition and breathing exercises.

Anyway, I digress. Check out Medium. It’s an interesting site.

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Wednesday, June 19, 2019

The Downside of Ménière’s

I know I post about my adventures all the time, but living with any chronic illness is not always easy. I don’t post much about the days when my bed is my only friend. I don’t post about being unable to drive anymore, because dizziness is an almost everyday occurrence. It would endanger more than just me if I were to get behind the wheel of my car to drive.

Unfortunately this means plans have to be canceled. Sometimes even if I have a driver, I cannot go. Like yesterday, my world was a bit topsy turvy, not exactly room spinning vertigo, but the world kept shifting. I didn’t feel safe to be out in public even with my trusty cane. Today is more of the same and though it’s early I had to cancel my plans with a friend. I hate being unreliable, but there is nothing I can do about it.


Today might be a bed day. The bad thing is that I think this is allergy/sinus related. My ear hurts and there is a stabbing pain behind my eye. Unfortunately it is triggering the Ménière’s and I am miserable. On the bright side other than mini spins, I am not having a full blown vertigo attack. Is it weird to say that I almost prefer the old days when I’d have a full blown attack and a couple of bad days, but then I’d be back to normal. Normal except the tinnitus and the occasional off balance moments. 

The mini spins are easier to handle on a day to day basis, because they don’t create more of a problem. The full on vertigo I experienced when I was first diagnosed was hard. During one I wish someone would end it for me. Even though I know I am lucky because I only get nausea during these attacks other vomit and worse during them. Still the room spinning for hours is difficult to get through. Then the hangover after is nearly as bad, because every movement feels as if another round of vertigo will strike, not to mention the light and sound sensitivities and constant off balance feeling. 

This is my life and I make the best of it, even when it means I sit on the sidelines like I did at Dublin Castle when Ralph and Colleen took a tour. I was having frequent mini spins and just being out was a struggle, but I did it and I survived. I even enjoyed myself a bit.



I hope you are spin free. 

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Tuesday, June 4, 2019

Traveling with Autoimmune (My Ireland Trip)



This trip was a mixture of fiascos and some good times. I started out by losing my passport in Gatwick Airport after going through the passport check. We looked everywhere, but couldn’t find it, nor had it been turned in. 

Many people have asked me how I traveled to Ireland without my passport. I went in through Belfast on EasyJet (On the Ralph and Rita Show, I said RyanAir, but that was a mistake.) Within the UK, you only need a photo ID to travel. I know I should have dealt with my passport in London, but it was a weekend with a bank holiday, so I chose to go to Ireland where all our plans were. 

Unfortunately, the stress put me in a depression and made me dizzier than usual. It is why I didn’t think about making an appointment with the embassy without prompting. I don’t know if my traveling companions noticed, because I am a good actor. (Most of us with chronic illnesses are.) Usually unless I mention it, others don’t notice.)

This is the first picture we took in Dublin. The bus from Belfast let us off in front of Madigans, so we took the opportunity to have our first Guinness in Ireland. (Why does Guinness taste better in Ireland?)

My husband likes to try to do as much as possible on a trip as possible, whereas I’d rather be more relaxed. Living with Ménière’s and Osteoarthritis has made it difficult to be on the go constantly. What is not far for Ralph may kill my feet. Plus I am out of shape due to be dizzy and unable to walk on most days. I do try to walk the dogs when I’m not dizzy. It’s a bit scary to be out by myself, not knowing if I’ll have an attack. I try not to dwell on that, but I don’t take chances on days when I am just dizzy.

I had too many mini spins (short vertigo attacks) on our Ireland trip. Even one episode in a restroom where it went on for several minutes so that I was afraid I might be having a full blown vertigo attack. Thank goodness, it was just a longer mini spin. And we were at the hotel with no plans.

We visited Dublin Castle, but I was having frequent mini spins, so didn’t go on the tour with Ralph and Colleen.

We visited Trinity College, The Book of Kells which were interesting. I loved looking at the colorful doors on the houses and business of Dublin.



The Game of Thrones tour and the Giants Causeway was interesting. I wish I didn’t have this damn disease, because I would have loved to climb those rocks. Instead I just soaked up the view. We rented a car to go to Kenmare and to see the Cliffs of Moher. Had a flat on a tiny one lane road in rural Ireland. It was too foggy to see the view at the Cliffs. We were lucky to see the road in front of us. I finally called to schedule an appointment at the US Consulate, so we had to leave the next day. I am afraid Colleen was pissed at me, but as I said the depression insulated me from the urgency of the situation. Depression is a sly beast.... People thinks it all about being sad and suicidal, but it’s much more.

Because you can’t travel to France using an emergency passport, I traveled home by myself via Calgary. My feet thanked me for it, because I didn’t get to sightsee in London or Paris. And I learned that I can travel by myself as long as I don’t stress out to cause myself to have an attack. This is where years of practice in relaxation and mindfulness comes in handy. And being prepared helps too. I set up wheelchair assistance, chew gum or suck on a hard candy on takeoff and landing, and make sure I have rescue meds, though all I have is Meclizine and it doesn’t seem as effective as it did 20 years ago.


All in all I had a great experience. It would have been better without the depression fog, but we squeezed so much into our time in Ireland. I don’t know how long this bout of depression will last, but it will not keep me down anymore than Ménière’s, Fibromyalgia or Osteoarthritis and my other junk does. 

The bottom line is to live your life, don’t let your health stop you. 

I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita


Monday, May 20, 2019

Preparing to Travel

Ralph, our friend and I are leaving for Ireland 🇮🇪 on Friday. We’ll be gone 11 days. We are trying to prepare for a long trip with carryons only. That is one small suitcase and a personal item (like a purse). Fortunately we can wash, so we won’t have to pack the entire wardrobe.

My packing list.


  1.  Medication (Unfortunately, I need meds to breathe and a few others that help me cope with migraines & autoimmune.) plus I will be bringing cold, allergy & sinus pills. Hopefully, I won’t need them, but I am just getting over sinusitis. I put my medication in a gallon bag, so I can get to them easily.
  2. Small first aid kit.
  3. Toiletries. (All liquids must fit in a quart sized bag.) So I have a bar soap, (I love Neutrogena), travel shampoo & conditioner, toothpaste, toothbrush, face lotion with sunscreen, tide (needs to go in this bag too, as does sunscreen if you bring it.) I have hand sanitizer in it too. Brush
  4. Clothes: 2-3 pairs of jeans and 7 tops, a sweater or hoodie, rain jacket/windbreaker, puffer jacket, underwear (I always bring extra.)
  5. Umbrella (It rains most days in Ireland.)
  6. Extra pair of shoes. I’ll be wearing my hiking shoes. 
  7. All travel documents, passports and debit card. We’ll be getting Euros too.
  8. Chapstick
  9. Phone and chargers with adapters for European outlets. (I am still trying to decide if I should bring my iPad. 
  10. Since it’s a long flight we’ll be bring breakfast burritos/bowl for me, snacks and I chew something to keep my ear from popping during takeoff & landing.)


I feel like I am forgetting to tell you something. The carryon luggage has to be less than 15 pounds. So things like my medication will be with me under the seat. We’re getting excited. If you want to follow our journey, we’ll be filming for our YouTube channel... The Ralph and Rita Show. Dublin, Northern Ireland, Drogheda, Kenmare are just a few of our stops. 

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Monday, May 6, 2019

Juggling sinus, allergies and colds with Meniere’s

It started with a tickling in the back of my throat on Friday night while at a local ball game. The wind that cooled things off was probably carrying pollen and dust. It didn’t register with me at the time. I just knew that I’d probably would have a sore throat soon.

Indeed I awakened with a sore throat. Add in the pressure in my ears and louder tinnitus and my balance was shot. After going back and forth in my own head, I sucked it up and joined friends at a comedy show, which one of them got for my birthday. It was an enjoyable night. Beginning with drinks in a bar with live music. 


Sunday arrived and even after sleeping in, I still was not feeling better. Still we went to a late breakfast, followed by mass where my friends daughter had her First Communion and then dinner. We were home in time to watch Game of Thrones and A Discovery of Witches. I was wiped out, managing to sleep all night.

I still am off balance and sick to boot. I would like to get some things accomplished today, but I am sitting in my chair hoping that the spins don’t begin. Some not quite a full rotation have been hitting. I am dizzy, which is not the same as vertigo. I think if I allowed the panic to consume me I’d have full blown vertigo, but I am mindful of the panic signs and start to breathe in through my nose and out through my mouth if it starts. 

This disease changes the rules on me constantly and there doesn’t seem to be any rhyme or reason for attacks. Too much salt makes my tinnitus worse, but doesn’t necessarily cause a vertigo attack. Colds, sinus and flu affects my balance and my ears, but doesn’t necessarily cause vertigo. All these things used to affect vertigo, but not anymore. 

I sit here in my recliner with my dog on my head, hoping that an attack isn’t imminent. I can smile, because despite this disease I love my life. 


I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita


Thursday, April 25, 2019

Spoilers or Guesses

I am sitting here, because I don’t feel well today... I have been thinking about this. 

My newsfeed is filled up with people not wanting spoilers for Avengers: Endgame. Though I am not going to see it until Saturday, I can tell you that The Avengers will win. They lost in the last movie (Avengers: Infinity War) and I haven’t heard plans for a third... So they win. Somehow, someway The Avengers will win. 

So aside from telling a line by line plot of the movie, why are people worried about spoilers? We know that the original Avengers survived and we know Captain Marvel and Ant Man will play a part in the movie. 

What we don’t know is if they can resurrect any of the others that Thanos dusted out of existence. We have clues that Doctor Strange who was in possession of the time infinity stone, may be back. Well, because he possessed the stone at some point, so it’s possible that he will be out to assist. He said something to the effect that this was the only way.

So, I say that we know one thing... The Avengers win this time. They lost last time and it’s not in human nature to do nothing, especially if you’re a hero. Or maybe I’m wrong and they lose again. 

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita


Saturday, April 13, 2019

The Downside of Meniere’s.

Last night we went to see Weezer. I rested all day, because my head was wonky. Yes, wonky is a technical term. It means my head was fuzzy, my ears were louder and my balance was off. My balance is usually off, but it was more so. I felt okay when we went to the concert. I didn’t bring my cane, but Ralph was with me. Believe me I held on tight. Since my husband doesn’t like holding hands, I consider it a win.

I may have felt drunk, but I am proud to say I remained upright. I wish I could say the same for the people in front of me. One girl almost fell twice going to her seat. I whispered to Ralph that she was worse than me. The difference being she was drunk and still drinking even before The Pixies took the stage. She left during the intermission between The Pixies and Weezer.

Here’s the downside of Meniere’s... My hearing dropped out during The Pixies performance causing everyone to sound like Chipmunks. This has happened to me before, but usually when I’ve been drinking. This distortion of sound was untimely. Before my hearing distorted my hyperacusis was bad enough to pull out my earplugs. Which I removed during the intermission. I didn’t need them for Weezer.

I made it to the restroom and back with only a little tilting. I am aware I probably appeared drunk to any casual observer. Someone said something to me as I stood in line, but I couldn’t hear her. She looked sympathetic, but probably thought I was drunk. Such is the life of Ménière’s.

The group with the drunk girl, minus her and her partner, returned. The guy sitting in front of me took a tumble  landing in the seats in front of him. Yes, he was drunk. I think what saved him from tumbling into the section below us was the fact that his leg got caught in between the seats. A Good Samaritan came down from the stands behind us and managed to lift the guy up and sit him back down. The guy sat in the same position for a few songs. I think he was scared to move, I can’t blame him. His girlfriend gave him back his drink. Probably good that she carried it.

This is my biggest fear when I go to venues like that. I am afraid of falling. Watching two non-meniere’s, albeit drunk, related people falling, hits home that shit happens and I should just enjoy myself. I am careful and hold onto things as I maneuver around.

I was able to enjoy the concert and could recognize the songs, even though it still sounded like chipmunks were singing. My hearing returned briefly for Rivers Cuomo’s solo. Then it went out again. Despite my hearing and the unplanned excitement, I loved Weezer. They are awesome.

I almost forgot... I wish people would have respect and leave their pot at home. I know it helps many people, but it gives me a migraine. YES, even secondhand smoke. Fortunately, I had my sumatriptan with me and it stopped the attack. Where are the drug sniffing dogs for concerts and such? Pot may be legal in Las Vegas, but not in public! Rant over!

My hearing is back to normal, even my tinnitus has quieted. I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Monday, April 8, 2019

Social Media

It is Lent and many of my friends have given up Social Media until Easter. I have not and probably won’t until everyone stops using them.

Why? My main reason is that it keeps me connected to family and friends. If you are my Facebook friend then you either don’t have Facebook or aren’t important to me. I say that a bit tongue in cheek, because many of my friends on Facebook, I have never met. Yet I have followed their lives and feel as close to them as if they are a member of my family.

Also, I connected with my husband through Facebook. We knew each other as kids, so when I joined Facebook I friended people that I remembered. About 6 months after my second husband died, I dreamed about Ralph kissing me. I messaged him through messenger. He told me to go back to sleep if I wanted to know how it ended. This made me laugh and I knew that we belonged together, even if it did take him a bit longer to realize it. We have been married two years this past February.

Still I might’ve been able to give up Facebook, until last year... what changed last year? I found a support group on Facebook for Meniere’s. This group understands what I am going through unlike anyone else. You really have to live it to understand that I put on a good front. Even on days I feel great, I still have balance issues. This group gets me and many have my warped sense of humor.

Still some people are okay without Social Media and that is good for them. Socializing the old fashioned way is probably the best thing for all of us. I do some of it myself. But there are days when I am unable to “people” for one reason or another and Facebook keeps me connected. I am not saying you should give up living for social media, there should be a balance. Though chronically ill people can connect through it.

Unfortunately, there are people who like to be negative and troll others to belittle them. I am not talking about healthy discussions, because hearing from both sides of issues is important. I am taking about the name callers and the holier than thou who won’t even entertain a polite discussion without saying you are going to hell. These people should leave social media. Bullying should not be tolerated. There are all kinds of bullying and sometimes a person doesn’t have to be mentioned to bully them.

So, I applaud those who leave social media behind even for Lent. If you are happier without it, then by all means don’t come back. If you are happier without it ask yourself why? We’re you being bullied? Do you have more time for the ones who really matter? Do you have more time to read, take a walk, create something? If so, maybe social media isn’t for you!

As for me, I will keep Facebook until there is a way to keep in touch with my many friends and family from all over the world. I have been trying out an alternative venue called MeWe.. Join me there while they work out the kinks.

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Tuesday, April 2, 2019

National Poetry Month



April is National Poetry Month. Read or write a poem each day. My friend, Elizabeth Christy, is giving poetry prompts. Though I used her prompt, I wrote a vignette. If you want to try your hand at it the prompt is to set your story in a waiting room and use these words: stroke, empty, rain, mother, space, above, laugh.  P.S. Thanks Elizabeth for getting me going!

A Moment in Time

At the stroke of five o’clock in one of the salon chairs mother glanced at her watch wondering, I am sure, if she would get home in time to cook dinner before her hubby got home from work. Nearby her daughter sat patiently waiting for the stylist to dry her already new haircut. I waited in anticipation of my own shampoo, cut and style, while I debated if I should add a color to it.

Outside the rain kept tempo with my heartbeat or maybe my heart beat to the sound of the rain. This space was almost empty now, whereas earlier it had been teaming with life. The stylists seemed to be on a mission to get everyone out the door by six. 

A stylist glanced my way and then to the clock above my head. She sighed rather loudly. I know I’d arrived without an appointment, but the sign said “Walk-ins Welcome”. I wondered if I should leave or wait to get my shaggy mess tamed? At last the mother and daughter stood at the counter to pay. They looked beautiful with their new doos. I took one last glance at the scene and slipped out the door into the rain, knowing that the stylists were too tired to make me beautiful too. I gave a little laugh as I thought, “They’d have to be fresh in order to pull that trick off.”

Rita L Smith

2019

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Saturday, March 30, 2019

Find Reasons to Laugh & Smile

It’s really easy to sink into despair when you are ill, especially when it’s chronic. But there are good days too. On the bad days it helps me to laugh. Laughter is one of the best medicines I know. Sometimes I laugh at myself. Like one time my speed laces tripped me when they caught my lace from the opposite shoe. I went down face first. I could have laughed, but it was kind of funny, since I couldn’t get up because my feet were then behind me.

I laugh at memes, my pets, movies (Even when no one else does, because my sense of humor is warped). I laugh with my husband and my support group. Sometimes laughter is the only thing that gets me through the bad days. It certainly beats crying. Don’t get me wrong... In the middle of a vertigo attack, I cry, because I forget how bad it is and I don’t know when they will end, but after that, I try to find something to make me laugh. My pets, the tv, or whatever I can find on Facebook.

I am thankful for laughter. It’s funny because I have no sense of humor... well, maybe I do, but as I said it’s warped. Smiling and laughing are essential if you want to enjoy life. I do try to enjoy life. I try not to let my natural grumpiness out. When I get grumpy, my brother says, “I laugh in the face of your grumpiness.” Who can stay grumpy when you hear that and picture my late nephew, Mikey, laughing at my dad.

Anyway, find what makes you smile and laugh. I married someone who does that for me. I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Friday, March 22, 2019

To Be or Not To Be Gluten-free



For some it’s a choice. For others like me it isn’t a choice. Though to my knowledge gluten isn’t my problem, I can’t have it due to my wheat allergy. I am also allergic to cows milk, so I am doubly whammied.

What is it like to be allergic to wheat or gluten? Dining out is harder. Some restaurants have gluten free menus, while others do not. For some they cannot even have the contamination of wheat (gluten). I am fortunate that a slight contamination does not bother me. I can still partake in the blood of Christ during communion. For me the slight contamination of drinking wine after others who have had wheat does not cause any adverse reactions.

If you are allergic there is a constant vigilance on your part to make sure what you’re eating is gluten free. People don’t even realize that something as benign as a seasoning packet might contain wheat. If your like me there will only be minor consequences, but others will get deathly ill. One would hope that others would be more conscientious when preparing food for their family, but that is not always the case.

Why was I diagnosed with food allergies? I was vomiting frequently and my reflux was crazy. So, my gastrointestinalogist sent me for blood tests. It was a simple blood draw and the lab tested me for the most common allergies.


  1. Cow’s Milk 
  2. Eggs
  3. Tree Nuts: (Brazil Nuts, Almonds, Cashews, Macadamia Nuts, Pustachios, Pine Nuts and Walnuts)
  4. Peanuts
  5. Shellfish
  6. Wheat
  7. Soy
  8. Fish
Once I cut out my food allergies which included most of the tree nuts, peanuts, sesame seeds, shrimp and egg whites, I noticed other symptoms, because they went away. For instance I was having a different type of vertigo than my normal Ménière’s Vertigo. Also, I had constipation and  diarrhea for most of my life... all that stopped when I eliminated my allergens. 

Upon learning that most were just food sensitivities, I could add them back in. Cow’s milk and wheat, however, are allergies that I notice fairly quickly after ingesting. Fortunately, they just cause me stomach pain, reflux and  diarrhea. I avoid them, but occasionally I do get some accidentally or because I was not diligent in asking the ingredients or I am craving a sweet. I am glad my allergies are not severe enough to cause me to go into anaphylaxis. 

Just not having the extra vertigo has been enough to keep me off the wheat and dairy. I miss having a cake or a milkshake, but have found alternatives. My nearest grocery store has a big gluten-free section and even offer vegan cheese. 

The bottom line is that I feel better and I have lost about 15 pounds. Who knew allergies were the cause of my IBS? If you have that and/or reflux, have your doctor check you for food allergies. 

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita


Wednesday, March 13, 2019

Birthday Month



This month is my birthday month. It’s been a fantastic month so far. Penn & Tellers Fool
Me taping on the 1st. A night of celebration as the hubby shaved his head for St. Baldrick’s on the 2nd. Followed by a day at the races. Unfortunately, Kevin Harvick didn’t win. Then this past weekend a staycation at a local hotel, where I was comped and then hit a jack pot. It’s been a great start to the big 55.



Yes, I will be 55 on my birthday! No, it doesn’t bother me. I really love my life and wouldn’t change it for the world. Well, I would eliminate the crazy autoimmune stuff that plagues me, but I am living despite it. It has taught me to appreciate the good days and even the so-so ones and to take it easy on the bad ones.





This weekend... St. Patrick’s Day weekend is the only free weeken for us this month and Ralph will probably have to work. I would like to drive to the winery... my supply has gone. LOL!

I get to see Donny & Marie during my birthday weekend. Though I’ve seen Doony twice, I’ve never seen Marie. I am excited. Then the day after my birthday I am off to visit my family in Ohio. I pray for spring weather and not winter. I have seen it go both ways when I lived there.

I will help celebrate my best friend’s birthday and my sister’s birthday while in Ohio. Ours are just a few days apart. There are a lot of March birthdays! So for all you March babies, whether you are a Pisces or Aries, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Enjoy our birthday month.

I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita