Post Covid Ick

 My bout with Covid over Christmas was mild. Not even as bad as my cold in September. 

After finally testing negative I thought I’d be good for NYE. And I may still be okay tomorrow.

Today, I have been fatigued, migraine(y) with vertigo. Mostly I have been sleeping. Something I should have done when I had covid. Don’t get me wrong I isolated in my room in bed, but wasn’t this tired.

Where did the energy go? I really hate having a chronic illness. On a day when I should be able to be up and about it knocked me for a loop. Both figuratively and literally. Vertigo. 

I want to wish you all a Happy New Year. 

Love, Peace, and Light! Rita

https://mycrazylife2go.com/

As I lay here in bed with Covid for Christmas, I wanted to take a minute to remind everyone that the holidays are hard on many people. I wrote this poem a few years ago when I felt loss. Maybe it will help someone. 

If you know someone who is struggling let them know you see them, that you are here for them. If you live with them they may need some extra TLC. Don’t ignore it no matter how uncomfortable it makes you.

Is Anyone Listening?

I am screaming, but no one hears!

Tears roll down my face, but no one sees!

   Do I have a voice?

   Am I invisible? 

Why are my desires less than yours? I have given all I can. There isn’t anymore. I feel empty. I feel drained. 

I am no longer able to give. I feel like I am drowning in my pain and no one sees. 

I am choking.

I can’t breathe.

I think I am dying a slow death. This must be what death feels like. No that’s not right. Death is a release from this pain.

I am tired of fighting through the fog. Though I know it’s only temporary. I am just wondering why you don’t see me?

It makes me wonder if I miss others pain. Does it make us uncomfortable? Does it make you uncomfortable? Do you feel as helpless as I do when I get into this hopeless state? 

The next time you see me. Put your arms around me. Believe me all I need to know is that I am still here. 

Depression is not easy to live with. I imagine it’s harder to see, but please don’t ignore it. I don’t want to disappear. I feel as if I have disappeared.  ~Rita Trushaw

Love, Peace, and Light! Rita

https://mycrazylife2go.com/

Goal Setting?

I have goals. But setting goals doesn’t work for me. However, Vicki Pettersson shared another author’s goal list. The kicker was it wasn’t necessarily to show she met her goals, but that she accomplished things. 

In reality I think it’s more like a to do list. Here is a simple list I came up with as I was writing this. 

As you can see that although it’s 4 am I have already crossed reading and writing off my list. Why, yes, I include writing this blog as writing. I rally need to add sleep to the list.

Social media is also a category I could add and cross off by writing this blog.

See all that I accomplished by simply lying in bed. When I am more awake I will try to come up with a daily/monthly thing so I can mark off tasks as I do them. Some will be repeated. Daily, I hope. Whilst others may not get done more than once a month. 

The point is to show that I am being productive even if my health doesn’t allow me to do much. 

Love, Peace, and Light! Rita

                                https://mycrazylife2go.com/

Self Care

I choose to live my life knowing full well that anything I do will put me down for a day or more. 

Last Week I bought tickets to see Toby Keith. I decided that even though my energy hasn’t been good. (If you want to see some of the highlights of Toby Keith’s concert I have them here.

Needless to say I am worn out. Also, factor in Christmas parties, a lunch date with my hubby and I just want to pull the covers up and rest until the holidays are over. 

Will I do that? No!

I prefer to live my life. I know I will like be a vegetable after, but I have the memories and the experience to think of on my down times.

It’s important to take care of yourself. I choose not to let others make me feel guilty for taking the time to rest or when I cancel things because of my health. It’s not easy since most of my stuff isn’t visible on the outside. I have learned to smile even when I feel my worst. The mask fools everyone as well as helping to change my mood. 

I am far from perfect. Occasionally I get glimpses of my grump dad in myself. I am trying to stop that. LOL! 

Happy Holidays to you all. 

Live life on the good days and rest on the bad. 

Love, Peace, and Light! Rita

https://mycrazylife2go.com/

Thanksgiving

Happiest of Thanksgivings to those who celebrate and have a great Thursday to the rest of you. 

Today, I am thankful for my gift. I am thankful for all the other authors that put themselves out there. 

Is everyone going to like everything out there? No! Do you need to be mean about it? No. 

I can’t say all my reviews have been nice, but I’ve always spoke my real thoughts. 

I think in the future I will be more positive in my reviews or  I won’t leave one. I don’t leave reviews on books that I couldn’t read to the end. 

I am reading The Signs of the Zodiac series by Vicki Pettersson. Actually rereading them. There are new Easter eggs in them if you’re paying attention. 

I interrupted my rereading to read Slay by Laurell K. Hamilton. It was good. I am going to give one spoiler at the bottom so stop reading!

Love, Peace, and Light! Rita

https://mycrazylife2go.com/

PS. Here’s the spoiler….

Still no wedding.

John Dunham’s Diary

After 13 years I have decided to publish episodes of John Dunham’s Diary on Kindle Vella. The first four episodes are up. 

John Dunham’s Diary-—John Dunham's life ended and began on the first of June 1898 when his family was murdered by vampires. John vows to rid the world of the vermin. His journey will take him far from his Ohio farm boy beginnings into a world he didn't know existed, a world of vampires, werewolves and witches.

New episodes will load on Saturday and maybe Wednesday.

Two Websites

I know I told everyone to hop over to my website, ritalsmith.com, and you can still do that. However, I managed to get the website mycrazylife2go.com, so check it out too. I am transitioning my blogs to Wordpress, but no matter which I blog on you can find it on either of my websites.

I am in the process of writing a book about my life, which I hope to have released next year. Though that depends on what the publisher wants to do or if I publish myself. I have a page on Facebook and a group if you want to connect with me.

I hope you join me on my journey to living life around my disability. As always, I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita