Saturday, December 8, 2018

Good Days & Bad Days

I’ve had my fair share of bad days. I am lucky to have more good days than bad days. There are days I can fake it. And there are days I cannot even get out of bed. Really there has only been one day since December of last year that I couldn’t get out of bed. See I am lucky. When this first began for me that was a weekly thing. 

Today is a bad day. Yet I am up and getting ready to fake it until I make it. My ear & throat hurts which may be contributing to my dizziness. I have a chicken to take to the strip. Meet Henrietta Henigan. She’s getting ready to make a journey around the world. I am looking forward to hearing about her adventures. 

It’s things like this that get me out of bed. Without my support group, I am not sure I’d be handling the return of my Ménière’s. Also, I may not have recognized that I may have other stuff going on too. 

Plus they make me laugh. It takes a special group of people to make me laugh. My sense of humor is a bit warped. 

I look forward to the good days and enjoy them more. I survive the really bad days and fake the rest. And I do it with a smile on my face. 

Smiling makes it easier to cope. I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Tuesday, December 4, 2018

The Healing Properties of Water

Water is good for us. Our bodies are made up of mostly water. Pink bags of water if you watched Enterprise. 60% water -I believe!

I drink mostly water. I find it helps with many of my problems. It reduces fluid in my ears, it helps with inflammation and soothes my thirst. 

When I took a boot camp exercise class, my body ached everywhere and I could barely walk, so I took a bath. Oh the relief I got from soaking in the tub was tremendous! 

So now when I overdo, which is easy, because I am out of shape. Also, with the fibromyalgia and osteoarthritis I get sore easily... so baths help restore me. 

The next time your muscles ache, instead of reaching for pain killers or a rub, try a bath, a pool, the ocean, a hot tub... It may help you. I know it helps me. 

Friday, November 30, 2018

Tips for Traveling with a Chronic Illness 

Today began with me feeling dizzy & drunk. Yes, MD often makes me feel that way. It began about 3:30 am when my DH woke me. We showered and headed to the airport bound for San Antonio. 


  1. Preorder wheelchair assistance. Also, you get to board first. It helps on days like today when I am not too steady on my feet. You can tell your assistant to slow down if you’re getting motion sick. Boarding 1st means I don’t have to bounce off people going up the aisle.
  2. Pack in advance. Make sure you have whatever you need to make your vacation fun. Rescue meds, medication to last the trip plus a few extra. I carry a folding cane in my backpack for days like today. 
  3. Try not to stress out about the what if’s. In my experience it makes my illness worse. If I should have a vertigo attack or feel like today, I will take it easy and even take a nap if necessary.
  4. Relax! You are on vacation or holiday after all, so take it easy. Don’t be rigid in your schedule. If you cannot do what you want or even everything you want don’t worry about it. 
  5. Take lots of photos so you have memories. Not just of the places, but the people who are with you.
  6. Make sure the people you are with know what to do if you have an attack. 
  7. Have Fun! This is probably the most important thing. Try not to dwell on what’s wrong, but live in the moment. Laugh & enjoy! 

Despite how I felt earlier, I feel much better now. We have done a bit of sightseeing before checking into our hotel room. Now we are resting before dinner. Yes, resting, because if you have an illness rest rejuvenates. 

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita 

Wednesday, November 28, 2018

5 Great Things

A very talented friend of mine asked her Facebook friends to tell her 5 great things. I decided this will make a great blog. I hope so anyway. 

I think is important to be able to find 5 great things in my life. If I can’t then my life needs improvement. Sometimes just getting out of bed is a great thing. With a debilitating chronic illness, it’s not always possible. 

It helps us to be able to assess and re-assess our lives. After living for years in the depths of depression, it is important to be able to find the great things in life. Because my depression is chronic I still fall into it, but I don’t stay there for long. Winter seems to be the hardest time for me. 

I used to be a pessimist who hoped for the best. I was never disappointed. Now I am more optimistic. Changing my mindset helped tremendously. I try to see the positives rather than dwelling on the negatives. 

Some people make this harder. I found its best to eliminate them from my life. It’s not always easy when those people are in your family, but I limit my association.

It’s like the old song says, “eliminate the negative... accentuate the positive. I like to start out my mornings thinking something positive. Something simple like, I’m lucky to have my husband. Sometimes, it’s I managed to get out of bed.

The meditation (autocorrect wanted to change that to medication) that I do has been helping tremendously to get rid of my natural obsession of focusing on negative things. I am still a work in progress. 

Here are my 5 great things:

  1. My husband- I love him more everyday.
  2. Laughter- without laughter eliminating the negatives would be next to impossible for me.
  3. Travel- I have been blessed to be able to travel. It’s something I always wanted to do and even though I may need breaks because MD & FMS let me know they’re around, I still do it.
  4. My Ménière’s Worldwide Family- I wish no one had to suffer from MD. it’s good that I have people I can talk to who really understand what I go through. I am lucky mine is not as bad as others. 
  5. The Good Days- having a debilitating illness makes me cherish the good days. 

So there is my list of 5 great things and this is what I keep in mind on those days that I can’t get out of bed. They are gifts that I have been given and I need to remember to take the time to appreciate them. 

What are 5 great things in your life? Please feel free to tell me in the comments.

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Monday, November 26, 2018

A Little Insanity 

I found the best website for corn muffins. It’s called A Little Insanity. These muffins are so delicious I could eat them all day. 

Since finding out about my allergies to cows milk and wheat, I haven’t had many bread products. So this is a win for me. I did follow her recipe and used the eggs. I have a minor egg white allergy and didn’t feel like separating the yolks. 

I used the corn meal as I didn’t have corn flour. I had the dairy free butter & the milk alternative. I opted to use Soy milk over the coconut milk, because I didn’t want the coconut to overwhelm the corn taste. 

My cupboards are starting to hold things that I can eat. There is a lot of trial and error in my kitchen. Not all recipes are created equal. 

There is a bright side to being unable to have wheat or cows milk. Technically more than one. I have lost weight. I am down to 195 from over 215. It’s coming off slowly, but I think this is good. I may be able to keep it off this time. 

My scarf hides the too big neckline of my sweater. I think clothes should change to fit the body. LOL!

I am excited when I find things I can eat. Some Italian Restaurants have a gluten-free pasta alternative. Mexican always has corn tortillas. And I am finding fantastic recipes online. 

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Wednesday, November 21, 2018


Laughter is truly the best medicine. While it may not cure all that ails me, it helps me cope. Like getting photobombed by a goat. We wanted him to photobomb us. We had a lot of giggles trying to get this photo. 

Laughter also has the added benefit of releasing the chemicals that keeps depression at bay. Most people who have chronic illnesses are susceptible to depression. I have an ongoing battle with the fiend. Laughter helps me through it. 

I will be the first to admit that I have a warped sense of humor. Some people might not realize that I have one at all. Still I enjoy laughing. It takes special people to make me laugh. Fortunately, I am surrounded by special people. My husband and online support group. Ménière’s Worldwide is not for everyone, but it’s perfect for me. 

I am able to laugh at myself. This is important, otherwise I would cry. I mean bouncing off walls, bumping into stationary objects and tipping over are part of my daily life. I am able to laugh it off and make fun of myself. For instance when others see me tip and my arms go out, I say, “I’m practicing my ballet moves.” 

My advice is to surround yourself with people who make you laugh and don’t take yourself so seriously. If you can do this it will make life better. And if you have a chronic debilitating illness, it will make it more bearable. 

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Tuesday, November 20, 2018


Thanksgiving is this Thursday in the US so I thought I’d take a minute to tell you for what I am thankful. 

First of all my husband and the new experiences he brings to me. 

We watch baseball’s Astros, hockey’s Vegas Golden Knight and NASCAR. Who knew I’d ever enjoy watching sports? 

We travel by plane, car and cruise ship. Whether we’re camping, cruising or staying in a hotel, we enjoy ourselves. I have done so many new things and visited places I never thought I could. Ralph and I are on an amazing adventure together. 

I love my furry children. 2 dogs and 3 cats. Holly, Chewy, Renegade, Blitz and Lazarus. I am thankful to have them nearby to love and be loved.

I am thankful for my sister, brother and dad. All my nieces and nephews and my extended family. 

I am thankful for my ability to write and speak my mind. That I am able to advocate for myself and others with invisible disabilities. To write and speak about my own struggles and successes. 

I am grateful that I found a group with others with Ménière’s who understand what I am going through. I don’t know how I would have gotten through coming out of remission without the members of MWW. They were with me when I had a full blown episode in May and through all the mini spins and even when I had vertigo from my food allergies, giving support and advice. 

I am thankful for my life! 

I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Monday, November 19, 2018

Celebrating Life

It’s been beautiful in Las Vegas this November. Now it’s just light jacket or hoody weather. I have been feeling better than I have in months on most days. 

The Ménière’s and Fibromyalgia still inform that they are still around.

So today as I am about ready to face the treadmill for my stress test, I wanted to take a moment to celebrate life. I have a wonderful husband, pets and family who love me and I love back! 

I belong to a wonderful church community here in the desert. In Zanesville I belonged to one as well. I have a wonderful online support group on Facebook that allows me to talk with others who share my disease. 

I am blessed in so many ways. So I celebrate life today. Life is beautiful if you allow yourself to see the good around you. I try to look for the positives. I’m not always successful. 

So here is my moment today to say Thank You for this wonderful life. I will try to make each day more beautiful for those around me and to look for the beauty even on cloudy days. 

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Thursday, November 15, 2018


So Monday started off bad for my hubby. His tire was flat, so he took my car. My car is a pain since they “fixed” the ignition so it wouldn’t slip. It now refuses to give up the key. I know they can fix that problem, but I never got around to it.

It ended bad for him too. Somehow he broke his glasses as he changed the tire that evening in the dark. 

Tuesday didn’t start out much better, as the eye glass place he got his frames from couldn’t repair them & didn’t have that style anymore. We both have appointments for Tuesday. Unfortunately, it will probably be a week before he gets his new glasses.

I dropped him at work and proceeded to Discount Tire to repair the tire. I (we) was fortunate to be spin free, so I could drive. They were busy so I didn’t get out of there until 11:30, so I went to Cafe Rio to get a bowl. Then home to conserve energy so I could pick Ralph up from work so we could go to the Vegas Golden Knights game. Still no spins!

We drove to Born and Raised to catch the bus. It’s so much easier & cheaper than parking near T-Mobile Arena!

The game was awesome especially when #14 in the Ducks helped us make a goal. Our team was working together and playing like a well oiled machine. 

We shut the Ducks out. Here is a compilation video of some of the highlights before and during the game. As you can see the stadium was packed. Sorry Duck fans! (Not Sorry) Some of the cheerleader came up to our section for a period. I think my husband was in heaven. 

The best part of the day is that I only had two mini spins (1 rotation each)! It was the best day I’ve had for awhile. And as I lie here in bed writing this I still haven’t had my usual morning wake up calls of mini spins. So, you see occasionally this disease gives me good days. 

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light!


Monday, November 12, 2018

Back in Vegas 

Our late flight gave us the opportunity to visit Boa Vista Orchards yesterday, Sunday. We had a lovely drive through some fall foliage. 

Fall foliage is one thing I miss in Vegas. Our fall is so late and then the temperatures just drop causing the trees to do the same without much color. There is some color change, but not as much as other places. Probably because we are a freaking desert, and not supposed to have trees.

The market was bustling with activity on the lovely fall afternoon. I wore a light jacket, though Ralph wore shorts and a tee. His Goat House Brewery purchase. 


I vlogged for The Ralph and Rita Show as we browsed. We bought honey, apple wine and of course apples. And the traveled safely home in our suitcase. I purchased a reusable zippered freezer bag at the grocery store. Did you know California you are charged if you was disposable plastic bags?  

We stopped on our way back at this little restaurant. I loved it the first time when I didn’t have food allergies. My allergies limited me to sandwiches without the bread, salads or tacos without cheese. Still my steak sandwich was filling if lacking for flavor. Thank God for Worcestershire sauce. You can read my short review on Yelp. 

Then we returned to MaryLu’s house to relax until our flight. We took Lyft to the airport. 

This weekend was particularly bad for Ménière’s. I don’t know if it was the late flights, the smoke in the air or the drop in temperature. Maybe a combination of all three. I pushed through, but also, took a lot of down time. I sat in the car while Ralph went to see the salmon at the hatchery. I went to bed early on Friday. 3:30 pm. And took a nap on Saturday before church. 

I am home now snuggled in bed with the dogs as I write this. Thinking of just staying here until my stomach calls me out of here. 

I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Saturday, November 10, 2018

A weekend in Sacramento 

We flew in late Thursday night from Las Vegas and after talking to Aunt MaryLu, we went to bed. Ralph and I were up bright and early to take his Aunt to see her trust lawyer. 

Then we stopped for lunch at El Tapatio’s. Delicious enchiladas for lunch for all three of us. 

Pair that with a late flight, and a little grocery shopping and I was wiped out. Before I could head for bed, Ralph had to stop a Moehler Egg Farm for some fresh eggs.

I went to bed around 3:30 pm. Only surfacing for short vertigo attacks and bathroom breaks. I didn’t wake up (for real) until 5 am. My sleep is always spotty. 

My dear husband prepared chili and breakfast while I attempted to regain my balance. We headed to Goat House Brewery, because my dear husband wanted to see the goats and have some beer. It’s good that I checked, because there beer is made with wheat. The goats were adorable. I am wiped out, so I am sitting in the car while Ralph is visiting a hatchery where the Salmon are coming up. We’ll have a video of his adventure on our YouTube Channel, The Ralph and Rita Show. In fact, the Goat House Brewery will be on it too. 

It’s cool in Sacramento, and lovely. The nearby wildfire that took out the entire town of Paradise is making it smoggy, so the skies aren’t as blue as they should be. 

I hope I’ll make it to church, but I truly am not feeling well. Stinking Ménière’s as Ralph would say. 

I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Monday, November 5, 2018

Trying to Find my Zen

I have been feeling stressed lately. It’s difficult to feel  Calm when my heartbeat is fast. Even when I am still in bed it 96 BPM. When I start moving it will be well over 100. So my sign to stop the anxiety, which is increased heart rate appears to be broken. 

Before you ask, yes I am going to a cardiologist in January. First I have a series of test. I had an echocardiogram, next week is a stress test and in December I get to wear a halter monitor. I wasn’t concerned about my pulse, because I thought it was my Mitralvalve Prolapse. It wasn’t until an actual MVP attack that sent me into vertigo that I became concerned. Hence all the testing.

In the middle of this I found myself in some drama. Maybe I created more in my mind than there needs to be. It sucks when I find myself replaying things over and over. Anything I perceived I did wrong or that others did, replay because of anxiety. This is what we called racing thoughts when I was a social worker. 

So I am beginning to meditate again. Thanks Father Bill at Holy Spirit for reminding me. I am doing things I enjoy like walking in beautiful gardens like at JW Marriott, when I am able. Multiple vacations help me relax. And I repeat my mantra over and over. 

My mantra or prayer (The Serenity Prayer):

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.

The courage to change the things I can.

And the wisdom to know the difference

Hopefully this will lead to a less stressed more thoughtful me. I need to live in the now and forget about the past and stop worrying about the future. I’ve already had one of the worst things any wife can endure... I made the decision to not resuscitate my husband after his third heart attack in less than 24 hours. And I made it through. 

It dawns on me as I am writing this that from September 22 (My late husband’s birthday and our wedding through Christmas, he died on December 20, 2012) are still very tough times for me, so my emotions are all over the place. 

I really need to be mindful that not only do I have this, but that due to fall/winter I get less sunshine and seasonal affect disorder will kick in. 

So, I am off to find my Zen, through meditation, movement and writing. 

I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Thursday, November 1, 2018

The Balance Act

Living with an inner ear or vestibular issue, balance can be difficult. It’s possible to be off-balance without others realizing it. I tip a lot. That’s right I tip, my arms go out to try to rebalance me. I joke when someone sees that I am practicing my ballet moves. 

Life is all about balance. Find what works for you.

You have to be able to laugh when you have a chronic illness. My late husband taught me to find the humor in any situation. Laughing also helps keeps the blues away. (Not always when you have chronic depression and anxiety.) I think it tricks the brain. 

If you have Ménière’s or some other Vestibular problems, I highly recommend Vestibular Therapy or Physical Therapy. It helps train your brain to compensate. It also teaches you to recognize panic/anxiety attacks that make the actual Vestibular problem worse. This for me was a godsend. 

So how do you live when you have a chronic disease? I know that when I make plans, plans may have to change as I never know from day to day if I’ll be able to stand. Or overdoing it may put me in bed for a couple of days after. (I have fibromyalgia too.) 

Knowing this is half the battle. You and whoever you’re with need to be aware. It helps take some of the stress of disappointing others away. Remember stress makes things worse. This past weekend we brought a friend along in case I couldn’t keep up, So Ralph would still be able to enjoy himself. 

Being spontaneous is good too. If you are having a good day ask your partner or friend if they want to do something. Tell them that you feel great and want to get out. 

Of course there are days when my balance is all over the place, but my head feels good. I use a cane for these times. If I am hiking I have a walking stick. Both are fabulous aids and give me a sense of security. Again it takes some stress away. 

When you have chronic illness(es) you have to pick your battles. Plan for a day of activity and then a day off to recover. If you are already having A bad day say so... Don’t push it. I made that mistake when I came out of remission. And I got sick in public after going on Space Mountain. (A ride I doubt I’ll ever go on again.) 

Unfortunately, we are able to cover up how we are doing so well that others may not know we are struggling. It is our duty to ourselves and others to let the people around us know. 

I have been lucky to never have had a full on vertigo attack in the day. At least it begins when I wake up usually in the middle of the night. It would be impossible to hide how I feel when I have one of these. It’s hard to describe, but it feels worse than being drunk and your balance is null. It takes two to three days for me to fully recover.

Notice my blue light filtering glasses and my cane. 

There are other props that come in handy for Vestibular issues. I wear or bring my blue light filtering glasses and ear plugs with me wherever I go. Lights and noise can be a trigger, so it’s best to try to be proactive with your triggers when you can. I would love to hear how others deal with their triggers, besides avoidance.

Also, I always bring my meclizine with me. I take it if I have a mini spin (a really short vertigo attack) or if I feel lightheaded or dizzy, especially when I am doing something. I try not to take it daily as I don’t want my system to become accustomed to it. 

So you see you can do things while having a Vestibular issue. You may not always be able to do things when you want or as much as you want and there may be a day or more of payback, but it is worth it to me. 

I took this shot from the car. It’s possible to find ways of doing things without really stressing your system. I am lucky that I don’t get motion sickness
Find what works for you, but please don’t give up, because there will always be good days. I know it doesn’t always feel like it. I spent a couple or three years in bed because of Ménière’s and Fibromyalgia. I didn’t have any energy. I only got out to visit family. Fatigue is something you can only overcome by doing things. 

I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Monday, October 29, 2018

You’ve Probably Heard This Before

Finding true love can and does happen. Sometimes a person can find love more than once in a lifetime. Sometimes I think it’s all about timing. 

My second husband died December 20, 2012. I was heartbroken and numb, but starting to live again thanks to my caring friends in the small river town of Zanesville, Ohio kept me busy so that I didn’t sink into the depths of dispair. 

I found myself getting healthier and happier and enjoying life again. Six months after Ken died, I had a dream. In my dream a friend from junior high/high school whom I’d had an unrequited crush on, kissed me. So, I told him via Facebook messenger. Ralph told me if I wanted to see how it ends to go back to sleep. That made me laugh and we started messaging everyday. 

Our messages soon turn into texts and phone conversations. Finally, Ralph visited me in August and we decided to see where our relationship would go. 

I joined Ralph and his family for Ralph’s 50th Birthday Cruise. My first cruise ever. You might have guessed I am now a cruise addict. Then I visited him for a few weeks over Christmas and New Years in 2013/2014 to see if we were compatible on a daily basis. This was not my worry, but Ralph’s. I had no doubts about where we’d end up.

In May of 2014 we traveled cross country from Ohio to Nevada bring me, my dog and two cats with us. Camping on our way sure tested our relationship. I think if you can camp with someone without killing them then you’re chances of a successful relationship are pretty high. 

At Christmas of 2015 Ralph kept putting little gifts in my stocking. Finally the last one was my engagement/wedding ring set. There was no big dramatic proposal, but I said yes anyway.

We married in February of 2917 in a Catholic Ceremony which was Ralph’s wish. We married in Vegas, but in a small chapel far away from the strip. We’ve been married almost 2 years and I haven’t regretted one minute of it. 

I know Ralph is mine to the end of time! And he’s had me since that first laugh. We have survived through his broken leg/dislocated ankle, my sudden coming out of remission on my Ménière’s Disease and family drama.

We realize as things change with us that we may have to adjust our lives to accommodate both of us and we will handle each thing as it crops up. In the meantime travel, camping and exploring are on our agenda. We are going to have many more fabulous adventures.

I hope everyone finds love and happiness!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita 

Sunday, October 28, 2018

A Fun Weekend 

Upon arriving in LA we visited The Last Book Store. Someone asked if it was really the last bookstore. I really hope not. I still love books, though it’s easier to read on my iPad. As I walked through a tunnel of books, I could feel stories pouring into me. 

There were many rooms of books both old and new. I could have stayed on one of the couches and read a book to completion, but I managed to limit myself to one book that called to me over all the others. 

After our visit to this fabulous place, which doesn’t compare to The Bookloft in Columbus, Ohio, which has more books than The Last Bookstore,we headed to our hotel in Burbank.

We ate at Market City Caffe, where we found Betsy the Wandering Cow. And the had some really delicious gluten free pasta. 

Saturday we headed to Universal Studios for mire fun. We entered early, because we had season passes and I headed for Guest Relations, where I got an express pass for my disability . Little waiting in lines for the three of us. I didn’t know that this was available until someone in Ménière’s Worldwide mentioned it. Since I have trouble standing for long periods of time it was handy. 

I wasn’t sure how I was going to do on the rides, but I didn’t have a trouble. Of course this disease (Ménière’s) is highly unpredictable and next time could be a different story. My vertigo held of until the morning after.

Still I said a big FU to Ménière’s as we played tourists on the Hollywood Walk of Fame. Though we only walked half the steps of yesterday, I got to see the famous Chinese Theater, and the Roosevelt Hotel which was the inspiration for the Tower of Terror in Disney’s California Adventures. Not to mention seeing all the stars. I was a bit shocked at how filthy the sidewalks were, even living in Vegas I have never seen that level of uncleanliness. Still it was an experience, which I can put in my book of been there, done that! 

Then we took a winding road up a hill to get the best view of the Hollywood Sign. The turns actually caused a mini spin. See I never know what will trigger this damn disease. After many attempts to snap a picture of the sign, I managed to get one. It’s difficult in a moving vehicle as obstructions popped up frequently. 

Along the way we spied this garage... Which was a perfect way to end our weekend which started with a bookstore.

I hope you are all spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Thursday, October 25, 2018

I Beg to Differ

Since when has it not been okay to disagree with others? That is what makes this one of the greatest countries in the world. Just because someone doesn’t believe the same things as me, doesn’t mean we can’t be friends or family. 

My entire family are Republicans... Then there’s me. My dad calls me a bleeding heart liberal. I say so what? Do you love me less, because I think differently than you? You and mom raised me to think for myself and that’s just what I do. 

Can you imagine if we lived elsewhere, I might have been disowned or even killed for my radical thoughts. Now we hear daily about “fake news”. It is our jobs as citizens to sort out the real truth. 

I have been told by the one who shall not be named that I can’t believe something I’ve heard with my own ears, I cannot trust my own judgment. This country is being gaslighted. And it’s time to stop.

Make informed decisions... Don’t just side with the masses. Don’t hate others for having a difference in opinion. Instead learn from them. Usually the truth is somewhere in the middle. Trust your eyes and ears, they don’t lie to you. Go with your gut. And if that means you don’t think the way I do, at least you’ve put some thought into it. 

This last election has made it difficult for many of us, because we fear our rights might be stripped away. So be kind to others when we disagree. Remember some of us are coming from a place of fear. The most important thing to remember is human decency. Don’t judge others. Love your neighbor as yourself! 

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Wednesday, October 24, 2018

My Life Is About To Get Crazier 

Beginning this weekend we are headed to Universal Studios. Before that we are celebrating Ralph’s Birthday for the second time this week with his co-workers tonight. Despite my protests we are going to Dave & Busters. I have been Ménière’sy lately, so not sure how I will adapt to the noise overload with all the flashing lights. I have my blue light filtering glasses and earplugs ready.

Tomorrow which is Ralph’s actual birthday I am ditching him and going to see Barry Manilow, which gives Ralph an excuse to get Cracker Barrel.There is much on their menu I can eat.

Friday we are headed to LA. We are going to see the stars and on Saturday we’ll go to Universal Studios. Harry Potter World here I come.

We’ll have a weekend at home and then are heading to Sacramento. I am going to try to meet up with a friend from Ménière’s Worldwide, but not sure, since we won’t have our own car. 

Finally at the end of the month we’re flying to San Antonio, because Ralph won a stay at a hotel there. We’ll meet up with an old high school friend of mine. And see the Alamo too. 

There should be lots of pictures and YouTube videos coming up to entertain. Well, they entertain us anyway. It’s all for fun. 

It will be a great testament to my fortitude if my MD doesn’t try to drag me down. I still haven’t had a major episode since May. I came out of remission the day after we went to Universal Studios last year. My anxiety has been high, which is a trigger for MD. I try not to fret about it, but it’s been niggling at the back of my mind. 

In between I have a stress test and I get to wear a halter monitor. Maybe the cardiologist can figure out why my heart rate is so fast. I thought it was the Mitralvalve Prolapse, but it didn’t show up on the ultrasound. I don’t see him until January. Yikes, I hate the waiting around. 

I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Tuesday, October 23, 2018

More on Managing My Anxiety 

You know from my posts that I suffer from anxiety. I chant the Serenity Prayer Frequently to remind myself that I cannot control every situation. I certainly cannot control others. What I can do is control the way I react. I need frequent reminders, especially when anxiety and/or depression strikes.

Some days my head won’t stop racing. All the thoughts run at the speed of light to drag me down. I have to consciously change my thoughts. That is why reciting this prayer and making it my mantra to repeat over and over. Also, I concentrate on one thought when I’m meditating to let it go. I hope I haven’t put an ear worm in your head like I just did in mine.

Today I am struggling more so I wrote my own prayer out. I am pretty sure it’s borrowed thoughts from some remembered things I have read. So I am not claiming it and it can be shared with others.

If you have ways to deal with anxiety that I haven’t mentioned and may not even have thought of let me know.

I put this on my blog page at I want to share with you all too.  Here is a direct link to the prayer

God is good. 

God is great. 

Please help me eliminate negativity from my LIFE! 

It begins with me.

And ends with me.

Give me peace.

Let me give peace. 

Don’t allow others to run over me. And don‘t let me hurt others.Let’s make everyday a BLUE SKY DAY! 

Even in when the sun is hidden from my view.

Thank you for everything you do!

I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Monday, October 22, 2018


Anxiety is an inttense, excessive, and persistent worry and fear about everyday situations. It doesn’t always make sense and anything can trigger an anxiety attack or panic attack.

You may experience a fast heart rate, rapid breathing, sweating, and feeling tired. Sometimes it’s just an obsessive pervasive thought that won’t let go. 

Every little thing that you perceive that you did wrong, every thought and action, slights real or imagined are magnified until you cannot function. Sometimes a panic attack is the result, other times is not as clear cut. 

There are things you can do to deal with anxiety. Meditation, deep breaths, mindfulness, avoiding situations that cause stress. These work well if you recognize the symptoms. 

Sometimes, it sneaks in and it’s much more difficult to use coping skills to get through it. At these times some anti-anxiety medication help. Especially, when it’s big brother moves in too. I am talking about depression. 

For me they often go hand in hand. At these times I may say and do things I would never do when you are healthy. Especially when the source of my anxiety is a person. 

Unfortunately, my mind would like to kill them off. Fortunately, I am a writer and I can do so vicariously.

 “Killing them off verbally is just a metaphor for cutting off negativie people from your life.

Eliminating negativity from your life is good. Often it’s not possible. So, finding new coping mechanisms is good. Keep busy, limit their involvement in your life. Meditation and relaxation techniques are very helpful. There are tons of YouTube Videos to assist you. 

The main thing I do is concentrate on my breathing. Breathe slowly in through my nose and out through my mouth. If my mind wonders (and it does often) I just start thinking about breathing in and out. To help me sleep I do a relaxation technique of tensing and relaxing starting with my toes and ending with my head. 

Anxiety has slipped up on me and I am having difficulty letting it go. I will continue to apply my techniques, but may have to ask for a bit more assistance. It’s time to get my Zen on. 

I hope this helps someone. And I hope you are spin free.

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Friday, October 19, 2018

At The Mercy of...

It’s a sad situation when you cannot drive. I always hated driving, but it was so much more convenient when I could. I have very few days that Ménière’s isn’t affecting me. On those days I try to catch up on errands like getting my hair done & getting toiletries, medication, etc. 

Unfortunately the goods days aren’t always in sync with what needs done, so I rely on my brother or husband to transport me. I hate it. I hate Ménière’s. I hate being dependent on others. How do people get by without a license or car? 

Today I needed a ride to JW Marriott where Ralph works, so that we can meet friends for dinner tonight. The only time that was available was at 11:30 am. I got here about noon. Ralph doesn’t get off until at least 5 pm. (It’s budget season, so all bets are off as to the time he gets off.)

I had lunch at Promenade Cafe. Did an hour long live with my friends from around the world in Ménière’s Worldwide. Had a frappe while I charged my phone. Took some pictures as I walked the grounds and casino. Now I am waiting in the car. Hopefully, the hubby will be here soon now. 

Yes, I still walked. I am sure I looked drunk, since I tilted a lot and stumbled a bit. I couldn’t have driven for safety of the public as the world keeps shifting today. Not a vertigo attack thank goodness, but hard to deal with nonetheless. 

It’s fortunate that I love this place and can find things to keep me busy. I would love to be able to drive myself whenever and wherever I want, but that is not my reality. I am dealing with it and still finding enjoyment when I am a bit inconvenienced. I’ll try to keep on smiling through my frustrations. And laugh at myself when I tip over. I keep trying to convince strangers that I’m just practicing my ballet moves. 

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita

Thursday, October 18, 2018

Thankful Thursday 

It is important to take some time everyday to remind myself that I am thankful for so many things. You might think with all my whining about health issues that I don’t enjoy the good days. That I don’t appreciate the good times. I am thankful for all the things I can still do. 

I do not have things as bad as others. Though I have symptoms, I rarely have the debilitating vertigo that used to keep me in bed. Only once since I came out of remission in December has that happened. It used to happen on a much more frequent basis. I am thankful for this. I wish no one had this, but I am thankful that I’ve not been worse.

I love traveling and am thankful that I am still able to do so. I love going to concerts and I am thankful I still have most of my hearing. I love that if I need to stay in bed, I can. 

I am thankful for my wonderful husband who is trying to understand this dreadful disease. He listens when I say I cannot do something. And is nearby when we are out in case of an emergency.

I am thankful for my pets who cuddle with me daily especially for grounding me during my full on vertigo attack or even the mini spins. I never realized how important grounding during an attack is, until the mini spins began. It helps me concentrate on something besides the room spinning around. Sometimes it’s difficult to focus on one thing in the room, because it keeps shifting. 

I am thankful that I’ve never had a major attack in public, though Disneyland was close. It just wasn’t the full on vertigo attack. But it was worse than the mini spins. It was a different type of vertigo where everything shifted up and down instead of the spinning. Anyway I am thankful that my full on vertigo attacks have always happened at night or upon waking. It’s safer to be in bed.

I am thankful for each and every day of life. I am thankful that I’ve found ways to cope and have things to assist making life easier. 

I am thankful for feeling God’s presence in my life. I try to see him in every aspect of it and in people. Some people make it difficult, but I hope God is present in them too. I am thankful that I feel I may have finally let go of hurts whether intentional or unintentional. 

I am thankful that I had a dream about a kiss. It has led me to where I am now. 

I hope you are spin free!

Love, Peace and Light! Rita